Wastin' away again in pity partyville

That's what I have been doing for the past week or so. After the kids left for Spokane it was pretty quiet around here and I was feeling pretty low. I always thought I was good at going with the flow of things but these past two years have shown me a different side of myself. Must be the age that is getting to me. You would think I would be jumping for joy. The house will be cleaner. When someone calls me on the phone I will actually get the messages. My grocery bill will go down! I can finally turn that extra room into a craft/exercise room. And yet....I am still bummed. It was hard when Darling Daughter moved 500 miles away and then proceeded to get married and have babies. I see her a couple times a year and talk to her daily through IM's. It hasn't been too bad. I miss her like crazy but we get along better now than we ever did. Now my Handsome Son is moving too. He and his girlfriend will be leaving in about a week. They too are moving 500 miles away. Luckily it is the same 500 miles that my DD went. So I will be able to visit them both when I go to Spokane. It is just hard because we have been like this team since they were born. Their biological dad and I were divorced when DD was only 2 years old. So I raised the two of them for 4 years by myself. Then I married Carver and he adopted them. To them he is their Dad. Then when he died, his kids left either to be with their mom or out on their own and it was back to just the three of us. Then HH and I got married when they were teens and the tough times began. It was a really hard adjustment for them as HH is a bit younger then me so only 9 or 10 years older than they are. They didn't want a step dad. They just wanted their mom. So we have been through a lot together and now the "team" is moving on.
This week has shown me that life changes and we need to learn to flow with it, not stress about what must change. My kids can't live with me forever (even though sometimes I thought they would). They need to get lives of their own even if it means moving far away.
So now I must redefine my life and what I need to do. I am still have Little J at home to love and take care of at least for 13 or so years. And I will always be HS and DD's mom, it is just that now I take on a less active role in their lives.
And hey it might be nice. Guess I'll just roll with it and try not to wallow in it!!
Pray for me!